Battle of the Ms

I'm at a very awkward time in my life. It's the time where apparently I have to choose between the two M's: Marriage or Mission. If I'm not doing the first, then I must be doing the second. It's very annoying. I mean, I have thought about a mission but in all honesty it freaks me out. As you all should realize by now, I'm a big family person. It's being away from my family for that long that would be the hardest part for me. But I do know it would be a very good thing for me. So it's a toss up. But I have decided I am going to finish school and then depending where I'm at in life (or in other words- if I'm not close to the first M then that is when a mission could happen).

But anyways, another thing to add to the awkward age: as I've mentioned many times, all my guys friends are returning home from their missions. And I have been so happy. I have always been so much closer to guys than girls. I only have a few close girl friends compared to the many guy friends I have. And I don't mean that to sound cocky or whatever. I just think guys are easier to get along with. I am more myself around just guys. Girls are too judgmental. And you all know that's true. But I've seriously been having so much fun lately. I've practically become "one of the guys" which might not be the best thing.. because I have run into a slight problem.. Now that they are home from their missions, marriage is the next step for them. They are constantly talking about needing to meet girls. Datable girls. And I know I can't keep them to myself forever, but I just know that once they do find other girls, they will have no more need of my friendship. I'll be forgotten about. I'm just the friend- not girlfriend. I will be replaced by their future wives. The same thing happened in Logan with the few close guy friends I made up there. It's a crappy situation to be in.

Ok, so I know I'm probably being a little too extreme and dramatic. But it's something I really do worry about. I love all of my guy friends. They really are my best friends. And I would hate to lose their friendships once they get married. I do know a solution though. I'd need to marry one of them. But it's hard when I just see them as friends.. or when the only relationships I've had with two of them have ended and so chances with them again are probably zero.

Maybe I'll have to go on a mission once they've all gotten married and I have no friends.. haha

Oh! A little side note- my friend Joey came home just today from his mission! A bunch of us went to the airport to welcome him home. I debated about going due to last time when Soup didn't hug me back and it was a little embarrassing/awkward, but I'm pleased to report that Joey was way normal and hugged me back :) haha

(Sorry about the way out of date pictures. Especially since six guys shown are still gone.. I need to get better at taking pictures now that I have a nice new camera.)

:)