Slowly losing my mind..

The past couple of weeks have been a little hard for me. I've been really stressed with school and have so many things on my mind that I'm going crazy. I feel like I can't even write this post because my mind has too much to think about that I can't focus on any one thing.

Pathetic I know.

I have been sick too which always makes matters worse.

So in other words, I just haven't been myself and I hate it.

The good news is that I only have to survive until Thursday and then I can finally relax a little, gain some sanity, and have some fun. And that fun definitely starts with Harry Potter!! You better believe I am going to see the movie at midnight fully dressed up in my Hogwarts attire :) and then I get to spend the weekend at home! I can't believe I have actually stayed in Logan for two weekends in a row! I'm sure excited to see my family- especially my nieces and nephews..

(thanks to Chantell for this picture that I stole from Facebook)

Wouldn't you miss them too?

:)

HvZ

Well guys, I survived being a human up until the last second. I went the whole week avoiding the big parts of campus and made it to all of my classes safe and sound. I attended some missions and survived those too. At least until the final one..

Yes. I died. Right before entering the last safe zone..

There I was. A couple feet away. And out of nowhere a zombie appeared and caught a hold of me. There was nothing I could do. I started undergoing a weird change. I was all of a sudden hungry. Hungry for human flesh..

Haha ok- don't judge- I'm really not that nerdy. The game actually turned out to be lame. I was disappointed with it. It started out fun and entertaining, but when people lie and cheat and become violent, it's not worth playing. I guess they didn't understand that it was just a game and thought it was real or something. It wasn't organized very well either so it was all just a big let down.

My friends and I have decided we will play our own little games of HvZ. We figured it'd be a lot more fun playing with people we know won't be idiots about things. Maybe that will make up for the disaster the campus one turned out to be.

Halloween!

I love Halloween. It has always been one of my favorite holidays. I just love dressing up in fun costumes, watching scary movies, going to haunted houses and corn mazes, seeing all the cute little kids in their costumes, carving pumpkins, and eating lots of candy!

This year, I will have to sadly admit that it was not the best. Of course when I wanted this year to top last year, it doesn't. Oh well.

I started my Halloween Friday night when I went home. There was a Ukraine party at my house (for the Save a Child Foundation which is the reason I have my adopted brother Austin). So I hung out with family for a bit at that party- got some free food and went through the haunted barn attic. Then my friend Chase invited me to go to the LDS Frat party. I invited Christal to come along since I wanted to hang out with her and her friends were being lame. So we got mine and Rylee's costumes and Chase came to pick us up.

We went to Cheri's to get her and then all of a sudden she changed the plan on us and we ended up at Hallo-funka-ween instead. Yeah don't worry- it was just a big slutty dance party that we had to pay $10 to get in. It wasn't too bad at the beginning since we got there right when it started so we had some fun dancing by ourselves, but once it got crowded, that's when the sluts started showin up and all the perverted guys that just want to get all up on you. I hate when dances get this way and it made it even worse when I invite and expose my 15 year old sister to them! Don't worry though, I took initiative and called the greatest friend ever (Michael) to come pick us up after it got too much to handle. So we left and after I apologized a million times to Christal, we just went to bed.

Saturday came around and I had to mow lawns for the last time! Thank goodness! Now maybe I'll actually get to stay in Logan for a full weekend..? haha but I spent most of the day hanging out with my fam until Chase and Stacey were ready to head up to Logan for the Howl.

We got to Logan and stopped for dinner and ice cream before we headed to Rylee's apartment. Once there, we sat around forever waiting for everyone to get ready. Grease was on TV which was fun to watch. I used to love that movie when I was younger. Anyways, finally at 10 everyone was ready to go so we headed up to campus and found out that there was the craziest line. We ended up waiting in line for two hours only to be inside for an hour! Yeah- definitely NOT worth it. I was reminded again why I had refused to go last year. I don't know why I let my friends convince me that it might be fun this year.. it wasn't. I'm not a fan of the big gross sweaty dance parties. I love to dance but not when all you can do is jump up and down because there are too many people surrounding you. I don't know why we call it a dance. I'd rather dance like they do on Grease! That's at least fun and you're not worried about nasty guys thinking they can grind up on you. So yeah, the Howl=sucky Halloween activity. Once it was over, we all just came back home and sat around forever doing nothing but watching infomercials.. yeah don't ask me why no one changed the channel.. and then finally at 3 I went to bed.

Can you see why this Halloween kinda sucked?

(Don't get me wrong- I did have fun with the people I was with. And I did have fun dressing up as Hermione. I can't believe it has taken me this long to be someone from HP!)

Then on Sunday, actual Halloween, it didn't get better. Mostly just because it's Sunday and you can't really do too much partying. I actually forgot it was Halloween. I did watch a scary TV show though. Ok, so it wasn't actually scary, but disturbing. Anyone heard of the show Sister Wives? If you haven't- it's about a polygamist family. Yeah I don't get how women can actually allow their husband to marry another woman and be ok with it.

But that was my Halloween weekend. Definitely not what I wanted it to be. But I guess it is somewhat continuing on because of a Humans vs. Zombie game I am playing this week on campus. Brief explanation: there were about 800 humans and 1 zombie to start the week off. We all have bandannas, humans wear them on their arm or leg and zombies wear them on their head. Humans can stun a zombie with sock balls and nerf darts. Yes I agree it is pretty nerdy, but you have to admit it sounds awesome right?

I survived day 1. Guess we'll see what tomorrow brings with now up to almost 100 zombies.. yikes!

Wish me luck! haha

:)

Oh, and in case anyone was wondering- I still hate the Post Office with a passion.

Why do I live in Logan??

So pretty sure I had a great weekend. I went home once again for a couple reasons: the birth of a new nephew, the blessing of another nephew, a sister's birthday, and an added bonus of a date with someone who I may or may not have a big crush on..

:)

I got home Friday and first visited the hospital to see the newest member of the Milne family- Brigham. And yes Brigham as in Brigham Young University. Perfect name for the son of my brother- and if you know my brother, you know just how perfect it really is haha

I spent Friday night babysitting Lucy and Benny (who are the siblings of the new baby) and we had a great time playing together. Once I put them to bed I cleaned the kitchen. I guess it's like a habit of mine now. I seem to always clean the kitchen when I go home. My parents got back from dinner and I ended up talking and watching the news with them the rest of the night.

Saturday came around and although it was raining, we packed up and headed to the BYU game. We were all prepared to be freezing cold and soaking wet but to our surprise it stopped raining right when the game started. It only started to rain again as the game ended! My Uncle Brad decided that God was seeing who the actual die hard fans were that would go to the game even with the threat of getting soaked and then we were rewarded with nice weather :) haha but it really was a fun game.

Once we got home, I sat around for a little bit and watched some tv shows. Austin took me outside and showed me the haunted house that is being made in our barn. It looks like it is going to be pretty good when it's finished- too bad I won't actually get to see it though. I then went back into the house and played the piano to pass the time until Tyrell came to pick me up for our date.

I had a lot of fun with Tyrell. We went to a corn maze with his singles ward followed by a fire at his house so we could roast hot dogs and mallows. We ended the night watching an older movie with Audrey Hepburn in it which was fun. It was supposed to be scary, and according to my mom it is, but I didn't think so. And then he took me home and we had to say goodbye with not knowing when we'd get to see each other again..

Why do I always like the guys that don't live in Logan??

Sunday came around and I went with Rylee to a homecoming. I didn't know the missionary but I tagged along so that Rylee wouldn't have to go alone. Once it was over, she dropped me off and I went to my brother's church because it was the Primary Program. Boy do I love watching Primary Programs. They are the best because kids are the cutest thing! I love it. We got home and got everything ready for the blessing. Tiff decided to just bless Q at our parents house so there was a lot of cleaning and cooking to be done. We did have some entertainment from the kids dressing up in lots of costumes.. :)

Yes, Carson and Benny are in fact in girl costumes :) haha

Then everyone started showing up and we got to witness the blessing of Q and also celebrate Tiff's birthday. It was a great day to be with the whole fam!

I don't have any pics from the blessing so these will have to do.

I need to get better at having my camera with me..

At one point in the day, I was holding Q and just stared at him for the longest time. Babies are soooo cute when they are struggling between sleep and staying awake. The faces they make are priceless. Boy do I wish I lived closer and could see him every day!! That's my problem- I really don't know why I live in Logan. I go home pretty much every weekend either cause there is some family stuff going on or people that I miss and want to see.

I should've planned that one out better..

Fall Break

Fall break couldn't have come at a more perfect time for me. I definitely needed a break from school to forget all the stress and have some fun. I spent the break at home- shocker right? At first I thought I'd be with my family until I realized a couple days before that they were going to Lake Powell. I wasn't invited. I guess my family really does forget about me.. haha ok so not really. They just assumed I'd have school. I didn't mind anyways because I already had a couple dates lined up for the weekend and of course had lawns that needed mowing- money to be earned.

So I got home to an empty house Wednesday night which made it nice to have some peace and quiet. I made myself some dinner and then tried to get a hold of some friends to hang out. Chase ended up being the only at home and free to do something so we decided to go to a haunted house. Boy was that fun! I felt it was a lot scarier this year than last year and I'm also pretty sure that once again the guy I was with was more scared than me- which creates a whole new level of entertainment for me :) so it was hilarious.

After that we came back to my house and watched Date Night. That is a funny movie! I'll be honest in saying it wasn't as funny as I expected but I still enjoyed it.

Thursday came around and I decided to be super lazy all day. Tiff did stop by which allowed me to play with Quentin and then even get a chance to babysit him for the first time while she ran an errand. He is just the cutest thing! I can't believe how big he already is! We had a good time together- even though he pretty much slept the whole time.

Once they left I continued my super lazy day by listening to a book on tape- the Hungar Games series. (Rylee told me I had to read them even though I still haven't finished Work and the Glory and I must say I am loving them. I'd recommend them to anyone who loves to read). Later that night I went to my friend Karen's reception and got there right as she was leaving. Good timing I know. I was late only because I had to wait for Chase to get back from work. Who wants to go to a reception alone? Not me. I at least got to say hi, congrats and bye and that's all that matters right? We met up with Deedee and Michael who had been part of the wedding and waited for them to help clean up and then we were off to hang out at my house. Chase and I made a little pit stop at Smiths to buy some caramels to make caramel apples. But our little 5 minute stop turned into a lot longer. We got a little distracted by the masks..

We finally made it home and were joined by Michael Deedee and some other kid whose name I can't think of at the moment.. We made caramel apples and then had fun dancing around the kitchen and just hanging out.

I woke up Friday morning and decided to mow some lawns so that I didn't have to do all 11 in one day. So I got a couple done and realized how sucky it is to go by yourself because then its takes a lot longer to finish. Once I decided I was done for the day I came home to shower and be lazy once again. I had planned on going to the mall with Tiff but she got food poisoning that morning and wasn't feeling good. Night time came around and I started getting ready for a masquerade! Earlier in the week I got asked out by a good friend of mine to go to a masquerade with him and I was stoked. It brought memories back from the one I had in my backyard after graduation- which was epic! I mostly just like the fact that it allows you to put on a prom dress and get all pretty again haha. I like any excuse I can have to re-wear some of my dresses from high school. Anyways, Pace came and picked me up and we met up with his sister and her friends and made our way to this party. It was a lot of fun! It could've been a little better if I actually knew people there besides Pace and it was weird to not be at a dance where I had some girlfriends to dance around by, but I still had a great time!

Saturday came around and luckily I have a great friend who volunteered to help me mow lawns. If he wouldn't have helped me, the 4 hours it took us to mow would've meant around 8 hours by myself! I treated him to some Panda for lunch and then we spent a little time with Tiff and Blake who had come over to visit for a while. He left and I quickly showered so I could still hang out with Tiff and Blake. We had a good time sitting around talking and watching Blake get restless from doing nothing. So they left to go do something and I got ready for my date with Ty. We went and saw Thriller which was amazing like always! Boy do I love that show. It does suck though because I realize how much I really miss dancing. I always leave that show thinking how much fun it would be to be in that production.. But that'll never happen so I guess I'll just have to enjoy watching them every year.

Today I went over to Nate and Marcie's house to visit and play with my adorable nieces and nephews. Tiff and Blake joined us too so we all had a good time together. Best part of the night was watching Home Alone 2. Yes, we do know that is a Christmas movie, but for some reason Sadie and Carson had watched it the night before and LOVED it, so of course they had to show us how funny it is. Just picture Carson laughing hysterically and telling us what is going to happen next plus Sadie quoting a swear word, laughing, and asking what it means. Priceless. Then the rest of the fam finally got back from Lake Powell at 10:30 pm so I was able to see them for a bit. And now my break is over and I better get to bed so I can drive to Logan in the morning and make it on time to class..

The Joy of Little Kids

So I've had a rough couple of weeks. There has been some drama going on plus the stress of school. I started writing posts about it all too but after getting some feelings out I realized they don't need to be posted. Who wants to read about me being all depressed or getting angry at people? So I've deleted all of them and am posting some videos that are complete opposite of those emotions. No matter what mood I'm in- they always put a smile on my face :)

And I better give thanks to my brother Nathan for catching these moments on camera and then sending them to me :)

ENJOY!

The next one happened while they were watching Dancing with the Stars.

No one told them what to do- they just did it! I guess they were inspired :)

Weekend Update

I guess I better start off my weekend update by talking about the football game that occurred Friday night.. I don't know how I can really put my feelings down for that game but here goes my attempt..

I am a BYU fan. I have been my whole life. The fact that I attend Utah State doesn't change my feelings toward BYU. I still cheer them on because as my sister put it: Utah State is my school but BYU is my team. Asking me to go against BYU would be like asking me to change my religion. It just can't be done. So once a year I'm put in a sucky position when it comes to the game in which BYU plays against USU (and I say once a year because football is the sport I care for most when it comes to BYU). The past two years I've worn a neutral shirt- blue. That way I can cheer for both teams without picking a side. But I would be lying if I said I was neutral in my feelings toward which team should win. And the past two years I didn't have to admit that because BYU was the better team anyways. But that all changed this year. Seeing as how USU has been playing very well this season and BYU sucking miserably, I knew it could be a close call. But I was definitely wrong about that. It wasn't a close call at all. USU completely conquered BYU. I was so torn during the whole game. I knew I should be happy for USU but I still couldn't help secretly rooting for BYU to pull through in the end. But it didn't happen. And it left me lost and confused with my feelings afterwards..

Saturday then came around and I was able to forget about the game since I was busy with mowing lawns and trying to be done in time for the afternoon session of conference. I then spent the night with my sister and nephew. I went over to help her with the baby while her husband was at Priesthood session. We had such a good time together! Not only did I get to hold and play with my cute nephew but I was able to just talk and hang out with my sister like we used to when we shared a room together. I forget how much I am like her. We feel the same way about things, we- at multiple times in our lives- had similar boy situations, and we are both clean freaks. So we had a good time catching up :)

Sunday I had the opportunity to attend the afternoon session of conference. It had been a long time since I went to one. I've decided to now try to go to at least one session every year. It is amazing sitting in that Conference Center in the presence of Thomas S. Monson and all the other Apostles and I want to take as many opportunities to hear them in person as I can! The spirit is so strong in that building. Mmm I just love conference! All the talks are wonderful and teach me so many things I need to hear. I'm going to have to write another post specifically for conference and the certain talks I loved most, but for now I must get to bed.

Goodnight world :)